…LISTEN.
Oh, my little Jujubes (Gross!). Why is it so hard to listen to your own advice sometimes? I love motivating others to be well and offering advice like nobody’s business. When it comes to heeding said advice, I – well – flat-out stink at it sometimes. Allow me to explain…
On A Fitness Level:
During our first plyo workout last week, I felt a slight twinge in my right knee. Of course, that didn’t stop me from plowing through the workout and posting a sweaty picture of my Heisman pose after. A few days later, I bent down to put a DVD in, and literally almost fell over from the sudden pain in my knee. I’m talking seeing stars. It came out of nowhere. What did I do about it? Nada! Instead, I continued on with my regular routine.
This week during work, I’ve noticed that my knee is extremely painful when walking up and down the stairs. The pain strikes and then the knee almost feels like it’s going to give out. It’s worse in heels, so I’ve surrendered to flats, figuring this is a fair compromise. Believe me – this is TOUGH for me! I love heels and own approximately 345 pairs. I’m digressing….
The funny thing with this knee is that it doesn’t hurt when I run. It feels mobile, loose and just fine. I’ve had no issue. However, ask me to walk up and down the stairs a few times in my best heels and you’ll send me into the fetal position. I’m completely perplexed by it.
I’ll be honest, I’ve never really had an injury before (knock on wood) other than an IT band issue once that was easily solved by a few days’ rest and some ice. I also tore a few muscles (I think) in my right shin/calf area last year around Christmas, but thanks to the flu, I was out of commission for over a week and they healed up on their own.
I’ve been assuming that because the knee only hurts at certain times, I’m fine to go about my daily routine. This morning, I decided to take a break from running and hit up the ArcTrainer. As soon as I cranked the incline up to “5” (it starts at “3”), my knee pain came out in full force. It literally almost took my breath away. However, it wasn’t consistent and when I worked at a higher incline, I felt no pain at all. Because I learned how to work around it, I finished up my 45 minutes and came home to hit the shoulders & arms workout on P90 (such a great workout, btw.).
I’m not sure where I’m going with this other than to admit that I clearly haven’t been paying much attention to my body. CLEARLY, something is a bit off. I shouldn’t see stars when trying to put in a DVD. But, because I’m stubborn and love my workouts, I’ve told my knee that it’s not the boss of me. In fact, I wouldn’t say I’ve been “secretive” about this pain, but I haven’t even told Mr. KD that much about it other than to say, “my knee feels a little funny sometimes.” What I really should be saying is, “The thought of climbing up and down stairs leaves me terrified and grasping the railing for dear life.”
So, now that I’m here, what shall I do? My thought process: I have yoga on the schedule tomorrow, which may actually feel really good and stretch out my knee. It could also be pure torture between all the Warrior poses. I guess I’ll have to see how it goes. If yoga goes well, I plan to go along with my scheduled routine on Friday, which would be some form of cardio and the Legs/Back workout of P90. The legs portion might be tough on the knee and I will obviously have to be mindful of that. This brings us to Saturday.
To be honest, the thought of Mr. KD being home and sweating it out to the Kenpo routine (while I’m away) has me feeling insanely jealous. We’re in this together and I hate that I’m missing a workout in general. To know he’s not missing it too is pure torture. My original plan was to bring running clothes and go out for a run on Saturday morning. I’m an early riser and figured I could run and be back before anyone even knew I was gone. Now, I’m thinking this isn’t the best idea. Maybe this opportunity for a 2-day rest is exactly what I need.
Remember when I told you that part of my New Year’s resolution (that started on January 1st, Kelly…hehe) was to take a week off every quarter to let my body and mind rest? It was two weeks ago – right before P90 started. I justified a week of “cardio only” exercise by telling myself it was going to be an indulgent week (it was). I surmised that a week full of Easter candy and fish & chips required exercise. While I would normally agree with this statement, I’m not sure I do in this case. I made this resolution for A REASON. I’m so in-tune with my body at this point in my life that I know exactly when it starts to break down on me. I also know when my mind simply needs a break from the 4 am routine. It’s about once every 3 months, which is why I made this strict promise to myself. It was a promise for me, which was then broken by ME.
I could probably write an entire post about how frustrated I am with myself over this, but it’s not going to help any. Who’s to say that if I had rested, my knee wouldn’t still be bothering me? Obviously, this is something I’ll never know. But, I think I can take away a valuable lesson from this. When I set these rules for myself, they are there for a reason. I need to take a few days off to rest before the knee DOES start hurting when I run. Right now, it’s bearable and I don’t want to push myself to a point where I’m declaring I have “an injury”. Knee pain is no joke and I know many people get sidelined for MONTHS. If I can prevent that with a few days’ rest then, obviously, the decision is quite easy. So, when I pack my bag for my weekend getaway, I will not be packing my running clothes and won’t even bring my sneakers. I’m too nervous to have them and feel the urge. There – I said it and now only have to follow through
Anyone out there know what the issue might be, by the way? Pain is mostly right under the knee cap and shoots to the inside of the knee. Thoughts?
On a Food Level:
At the risk of outing myself as a complete phony, I truly haven’t been listening to my body when it comes to food either. Hello, Lindsay!! How can I expect people to take my advice seriously when I can’t even listen to it myself?
Truth is, I’ve been so consumed by all things “KD” that I haven’t really stopped to think about how I’m feeling after meals. It feels as though my every bit of free time is sucked up by replying to emails, answering comments, writing posts, checking out others’ blogs and brainstorming ways to make this blog better (it’s in the works, folks!!). I’m not complaining. I love every second of it and have never been so happy. But, my focus has been on work, work, work and less on yours truly.
I realized today that while my lunches might look scrumptious, they really haven’t been doing the trick. Yesterday’s lunch (salad with fruit, goat cheese and balsamic vinegar/olive oil and pb&j sandwich) was the only lunch that held me over until snack time. On the other days, I’ve been reaching for my snack earlier. I don’t have set times that I need to eat by any means, so it’s not the timing of my snack that bothers me. I’m simply bothered that I’ve been getting so hungry!! I drink water like a fish all day long at my desk, so I know my H2O intake is not the culprit. This leads me to examine my food.
I’ve talked recently about incorporating more protein and how it helps keep me satiated. This is very true, but good carbs and healthy fats also play a huge roll for me. I think I’ve been so concerned with displaying different lunches on the blog that I haven’t really been paying much attention to what works for me. I’m such a siwwy wabbit sometimes!
For example, last night, I knew I wanted to take leftover pork because it is just delightful. I decided to take leftover asparagus with it to let a little green into my life. I also packed a slice of bread, which I toasted and used as a base for the pork (this was so good!). I also brought along half an apple. It sounds good in theory, but after dinner last night, we only had 4 asparagus stems left. That’s not exactly a hearty serving. I was in such a rush to post, I never stopped to think that perhaps I should actually take an entire apple or another slice of bread. I ate my lunch and felt satisfied until about 2:00 pm when I thought I’d die of starvation.
Here she is:

The scary part about these hunger strikes (which I’ve alluded to in past posts) is that they come on strong and are the type that leave me feeling weak, dizzy and with a slight headache. Um, this is so not cool and so completely against everything I believe in!! If I’m feeling weak and dizzy, obviously I need to eat more!!! I can’t believe it took me over a week to figure this out. I could just smack myself sometimes!
Through further analysis, I realize the actual culprit is P90X. Whether you’ve tried the workouts, seen the infomercials or just heard me talk about it, you pretty much know by now that it’s intense. Luckily, I’ve always kept my workouts pretty intense at the gym, but this is definitely taking it up a notch. In the few weeks prior to this, I knew we were going to start and I was pretty bored with my lifting routine. Looking back on it, I didn’t push myself the way I could have. Now that I’m working at 110% intensity all the time, I need to find a better way to fuel my body.
Even though I’m having the most trouble after lunch, I suspect the problem begins earlier. I wake up early, workout, shower, get ready and head to work. It’s generally 4.5 – 5 hrs from the time I wake up before I eat “breakfast”. I’m so ashamed to admit it, but it’s true. :oops: My body doesn’t think that’s breakfast! The poor thing is probably starving for lunch at that point!
I’ve tried to combat this in the past with a protein shake or ½ banana after my workout. At least it’s SOMETHING to hold me over until my actual bowl of oats (which were so outstanding today). I keep going back-and-forth with this protein shake. I just told you guys I was going to stop drinking it in the morning because I felt like it threw off my entire eating cycle. But, am I just making that up because I’m not used to it? Or, is simply that if I add these extra calories to my morning routine, I don’t want to give them up at another meal? I’m not really sure at this point. I simply feel confused and know something needs to change because I’m lethargic and can’t take the afternoon headaches anymore (Would you like some wine with that cheese, little girl?)
This eating plan has always worked for me before (even though I’ve always known that I wait too long to eat breakfast), but now that I’ve ramped up my exercise routine, I don’t think it’s cutting it. So, I’m turning to you guys. How long do you wait from the moment you wake up until you eat breakfast? What do you generally eat after a workout? Are you completely horrified that I’m going 5 hours before I actually put a drop of food in my mouth?!?
Any help you can give would be SO appreciated!
Now let’s get to the GOOD stuff!
Breakfast:
New Classic Banana Oats with Cottage cheese!
I was nervous about using the cottage cheese in overnight oats for fear that they would become too cheesy when heated in the microwave. They definitely melted more, but they didn’t give off a heavy cheese flavor. They simply made the bowl creamy goodness! I might never make a bowl without them again.
In the mix:
· ¼ cup oats
· ¼ water
· ¼ cup almond milk
· ½ banana
· Dash of salt
· Splash of vanilla
· Cinnamon
· 1 tbsp flaxseed
· 1/3 cup cottage cheese
Toppings:
· Spoonful of Naturally Nutty Chocolate Toffee (I am going to miss this stuff when it’s gone!)
· ½ tbsp chia seeds!!!!!

We’ve already covered my lunch, but didn’t go through what I did when my hunger strike hit. Naturally, I bought some frozen yogurt
I’m IN LOVE with strawberry frozen yogurt (and strawberry milkshakes…yum!). I think it might actually be my favorite flavor (of froyo..NOT ice cream…let’s make that clear), but I don’t want to hurt anybody’s feelings. I saw it in the cafeteria and knew it had to meet my belly immediately! They NEVER have strawberry, so when I got hungry too early and didn’t feel like surrendering my packed snacks so early, I ventured down for some. It’s a good thing, too, because it was almost completely melted and on its way out! I topped it with ~ tbsp of crushed peanuts and spring colored M&M’s.
And, then I forgot to take a picture of it. Sorry
However, the strangest thing happened and I decided I didn’t want the M&M’s and ate around them. I actually threw them away. I don’t think I’ve ever said no to chocolate in my life! Hell must be feeling pretty chilly today! I guess all I really wanted was the cool, strawberry flavor and it certainly didn’t disappoint.
For my actual snack, I had fruit salad and a Larabar. I love this bar so much that it might have actually been the highlight of my day, topping the strawberry froyo. No joke, kids. I love these things.

Dinner was supposed to be two pieces of lasagna that we have in the freezer, but neither of us were feeling it. So, it became a free-for-all. Mr. KD wound up with a tuna sandwich and I decided on an egg scramble of one egg, two egg whites, spinach, arugula and onion. I topped it with ketchup and parmesan cheese. It was all accompanied by a piece of toast. However, at the last minute I decided to heat up MORE pork and serve it on the side.

Turns out, I really wasn’t feeling pork and didn’t touch it. Truthfully, I wasn’t very hungry. WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY EATING PATTERNS? As I’m typing this, I’m not hungry and I hope it stays this way. I’m afraid I’ll get hungry before bed!
I’ll leave you with this final thought: I refuse to beat myself up over what I ate today. Frozen yogurt is a completely suitable snack in a balanced meal plan, which I think I have. However, I’m pretty bummed that I turned to it knowing that it doesn’t have any staying power. It’s definitely more of a treat. While I am 100% in favor of treats, I think they should be something of pure enjoyment rather than eaten in a clutch when you’re hungry. I wish I had planned my meal better and saved the froyo splurge for a warm, sunny day when I was walking around in the sunshine. See the difference? I suppose you can’t win ‘em all. Healthy living means dwelling in a constant learning environment and I’m simply still trying to nail down what works best for me
I would be lying, however, if I didn’t tell you that I was slightly very grumpy while typing this. I blame it on hormones.
Question of the day: What’s your favorite healthy breakfast?
I don’t look forward to anything quite like my oats. They’re a blank canvass for so many experiments and change with the seasons! It’s impossible to get bored and I love that!